I was worried this was going to happen. And I am not even that far into this journey in the blogging world. The dreaded writer’s block has taken ahold of my brain. What is interesting is that I have a lot of ideas still swirling around right now. But I cannot seem to find a purpose for them in a post.
One of my favorite parts of blogging is the freedom and liberating feeling that comes from publishing a post I am proud of submitting. It is true and cheap therapy. But more importantly, I want it to resonate with people too. I want someone to read my post and think “Me too!”. I love when I read blogs or books and get that feeling. So of course I want to instill that feeling in others.
I have decided that I am probably trying too hard right now. I am trying to become TOO relatable. I am doing my typical routine of trying to please everyone. The last 10 months of my life of being a new mom have caused and encouraged me to be vulnerable. Even though it has been beyond challenging, I am thriving. I love being vulnerable because it is the most authentic I have ever felt.
But like I have said before, being vulnerable is really scary. Because whether or not we like to talk about it, it is human nature to judge. I do it too. I am of course not proud of it, but we all do it. So sometimes I worry how people will judge this new and vulnerable me in the blogging world and in the “real” world. Being judged is hard. Because for me, it brings up my insecurities and doubt. It brings up pain.
Maybe it is not so much writer’s block that I am experiencing, but fear. When I first started this post, I did not even realize that is where this was headed. See, I told you, free therapy!
I am going to work on embracing my fear. Even typing that sentence is hard. If I embrace this fear, it makes me look deeper into myself about why the fear is in me in the first place.
So as I continue to reflect, I hope you will continue to read. Because I appreciate you reading more than you know.
PS-If you are a blogger, I would love some advice on how to connect more to readers
PSS- this is the before pic of my new writing desk. Can’t wait to show the after pic with it decorated! 🙂